I finally got tired Of waiting for Yahoo to get its act together, so today pulled all of my posts from 360 and posted them to DreamWalker's World. These go back to 2006 and represent events since I moved from my hometown.   I am traveling to the hometown today to visit the family for Christmas and to look for a new vehicle. My old truck is about to fall down and as it is I best be looking for a replacement. More about the trip later. I start training for a new job on the 26th. This is another temp job and is slated to last 4-6 weeks during the tax season. I certainly hope that it has some potential for permanence, but given the state of the economy nothing seems like it will last.

Fall semester officially came to an end as of December 17, and after days of waiting all of my grades posted. My GPA is a bit lower than in the summer at 3.2. That doesn't bother me too much since I graduate this month. After the stress of taking 5 courses at 17 credit hours I am finding it hard to unwind.  Being wound up too tight is really addictive, and settling back down to a normal pace isn't as easy as it may seem.  One of my great concerns after graduation is to be able to translate my new degree (BS Workforce Leadership) into cash in hand.  Given the state of the economy at this moment in time the future is difficult to predict.  The main thing that has enabled me to survive has been my ability to live sparsely, in other words I spend nearly no money beyond regular living expenses.  The next great endeavor that is taking shape is the web design business which I have been slowly developing. The business departs from my usual role as part of a project team and extend into the role of independent developer. There is a lot to be said for the security of a group, and the pool of ideas that come out of it. The problem for me is not a lack of creative ability, but an abundance of apathy. To use another term, depression. Since Dad passed I have become aware that Home, which has been the anchor of my existence is now here. Dad was the symbol of Home, and although I still have Mom I feel as though that great anchor that held the world in place has been broken. Now, Home is behind the closed door of time and I can't go there any more. It lives in a misty veil of memory that grows fainter as the years wear on.  

A steady breeze flowed gently through the curtains on that sunlit afternoon. I saw her in the park dressed in that pretty pink sun dress, bare footed in the sand. She looked like an angel that came to see what the earth was made of. Her long black hair flowed down around her hips like a veil, and her eyes were like the setting sun. Her name was Ling and she was my true love. She came in from the cold and touched me. She loved, and left me to wonder why. Oh, my beloved where have you gone? My soul is lost without you. Oh Precious little one, I am lost in darkness without your light to guide me. Call my name and I will run to your side. Sing to me and I will cry for joy. I hear you! You are Laughing! Scornfully, Laughing. Outside the crystal ball you have made my prison. In your hand you hold my world, and you look down upon me and laugh. I can see you, but I cannot touch. I hear you but your lips are white with snow. I hunger for you, but you starve me to death. How can you be so cold my love? How can your words cut me like a thousand knives? My flesh hangs in shreds, and my heart is frozen in ice. And You See Me And Laugh! © 2008 Joseph Bolin All Rights Reserved

Iced Dedication To A Flat Plane Existence!

In what dimension do we see those wet pearls of wisdom flowing off the tongues of high minded leaders while we the masses starved for knowledge drink in like the dessert soaks up the rain. None that I know of. Here we are like the wind; we come and cry then go away without a trace. We carry the scent of summers past like sickly ghosts. We are an illusion, phantoms of what was once thought of as life. Oh we the fools of perdition, held the silver spoons like deserving worthy seeds off the tree of good glory. Shaken by the wind we fell upon hard ground only to shrivel and die in the hot sun of an unmerciful God.

Oh you virgins, come to the fire, moths to the flame. For joy we will burn like the sun for one moment then be dark forever, played upon the face of the devil’s wrath. Now some will say these blinding lights are angels, some the children of the grass. I say that neither be true for in that moment of flash and fire there is no pain, neither shame nor regret. After the fires are gone the world is flat and cold. There is no more summer and life is a joke, with no one to hear it.

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Update: I came through summer semester with a 3.7 GPA. I made the deans list for the first time at U of L. Summer was challenging but Fall will be make or break with 5 courses rounding out the semester. Its insane, but it will get me into graduation. This is the semester that will test my metal.  Post Notes: The summer semester was considerably shorter than the normal 16 week term so quite I had quite a few advantages, one being that there was less work to be done.

Well, spring semester at University Of Louisville has come to an end and I am coming away with a strong 3.1 GPA. I started summer semester on June 3rd and I am looking forward to clearing the way for graduation in the fall. It’s been difficult this year and I have gone through a number of changes. I think we all knew that the big changes were coming, we just didn’t know when. It finally happened and I am moving forward with my life. I lost my dad on September 21, 2007 and that has taken a heavy toll on my confidence, yet I see the sun rising on a new day. Nothing is going to keep me down. Those words may sound like fluff to some people, but they are the truth. I have been criticized and put down many times for the path that I have chosen and every time I hear someone say that I am wasting my time I use their negativity to become stronger. Anyone can talk a good fight, but its not always about fighting, sometimes success is about staying in the game.

I have a new house and I am now a college graduate. Yes, you read that right. I have now completed the requirements for Associate of Applied Sciences which includes 3 Certificates. It’s been a good year for me. Money wise I got a raise recently. I can’t complain. My next project is to get a new mobile phone (Cell Phone). I am getting into the Bluetooth game and I think as time goes by I will be completely wireless. I picked up a new Linksys wireless router and hooked it up. I had some problems so I called Linksys for some help. The representative I spoke to was so nice. I talked to a technician who helped me set up my encryption. Basically nobody else can tap into my internet connection. Its fun to know that I can take my laptop and walk around the yard. I do a lot of chatting so I look forward to walking around with my webcam. Note: At this time I have applied to and been accepted by University Of Louisville and I plan to begin work on my Bachelors in the fall.